On Shadow

Nov. 14th, 2007 03:40 pm
prydeful: (Worn out and through)
[personal profile] prydeful
It's weird to wake up and be solid.

Piotr's arm is over her, which sometimes happens even if she's phased, but the bed is also solid beneath her.

It's just--

It's weird. It's only been a few nights, and she's telling herself she'll get used to it.

It's not bad, anyway, she reminds herself as she gets up and heads to the bathroom, uses the toilet and splashes some water on her face.

She stops to look in the mirror for a moment, studies the Kate Pryde who's studying her back, and thinks, You could be pregnant and feels a little sick to her stomach.

She needs, maybe, Kate thinks, to not think about that in the middle of the night. There are too many ways to get lost in her own thoughts, alone.

When she heads back to bed Piotr's stirring slightly in his sleep; it makes her bend to kiss him, softly, drift a hand over his hair, and whisper a shhh that may wake him more than let him sleep, but is still meant for comfort.

Date: 2007-11-14 10:33 pm (UTC)
steelartisan: (drowsy or sleeping or unconscious)
From: [personal profile] steelartisan
Piotr's breath hitches slightly, and then smooths out in a sigh as his head turns into her hand.





It's a minute or so before his eyelids flutter, and open slowly. Half-awake is the best word to apply here, in the silent midnight of their borrowed bedroom.

Date: 2007-11-14 11:14 pm (UTC)
steelartisan: (hands touch...eyes meet)
From: [personal profile] steelartisan
Piotr mumbles something that sounds like agreement, his face softening into the faintest of smiles at her kiss, and scrubs a hand over his eyes to wake up a little more.

He was, but the dream's already slipping away into incoherent, misty half-memory. It's the kind of dream he's glad to let fade.

One hand lifts to smooth her hair. "You're awake?" He's not awake enough yet to be paying any attention to what language the words come out in, and so it's Russian.

Date: 2007-11-15 04:19 am (UTC)
steelartisan: (those simple moments of peace)
From: [personal profile] steelartisan
"Mmph." He rolls sideways as she settles, wrapping a loose arm around her waist.

"What time is it?"

Sleep's an option.

Sleepy-but-awake cuddling is an option too, and he's about equally split between the two at the moment.

Date: 2007-11-15 04:47 am (UTC)
steelartisan: (those simple moments of peace)
From: [personal profile] steelartisan
"'s all right."

He leans in to kiss her, drowsy but smiling.

Date: 2007-11-15 05:07 am (UTC)
steelartisan: (those simple moments of peace)
From: [personal profile] steelartisan
That moment's hesitation pulls him a little more awake, though, even as his hand spreads against her lower back in appreciation of the kiss.

(Part of his mind's noticed: every time he's touched her tonight, he's connected. The sheets and mattress are a tangible presence, every minute. He's not used to that being true, not consistently so, when he's with her.)

Date: 2007-11-15 05:42 am (UTC)
steelartisan: (steel and shadow)
From: [personal profile] steelartisan
An unavoidable thought: the millions of depowered mutants. Their own friends -- Jubilee, Dani. All of being like everyone else.

But this is different.

He doesn't draw her closer, but he doesn't pull away either. Just holds her, and listens.

Date: 2007-11-15 05:57 am (UTC)
steelartisan: (why I'm here)
From: [personal profile] steelartisan
"If I can help..."

I know isn't precisely true. Though he can guess some of it.

I'm sorry isn't exactly true either.

But I'll help, any way I can -- that is.

Date: 2007-11-15 09:35 am (UTC)
steelartisan: (hands touch...eyes meet)
From: [personal profile] steelartisan
"I know you can."

"You are so strong." And that's just loving.

He wants to make this easier for her.

(I could be pregnant now, she says, and his heart tries to leap and constrict at once.)

He wants to, and he can't. So he does what he can, which is to thread his fingers through hers and stroke back her hair, and be here for her.

Date: 2007-11-15 04:38 pm (UTC)
steelartisan: (not smiling nope not one bit)
From: [personal profile] steelartisan
"I'm still right." He's smiling a little too.

And then "I know," he murmurs, and for that he's serious.

He doesn't know exactly what it's like. But he knows -- of course he does -- that it's hard, and it hurts, and she misses what's been thoughtlessly natural since she was thirteen.

Date: 2007-11-15 06:05 pm (UTC)
steelartisan: (those simple moments of peace)
From: [personal profile] steelartisan
Twelve years of phasing is a long time, too. Almost half her life.

He doesn't say that. But they both know it.

"It will get easier." Just about everything does, sooner or later.

Date: 2007-11-15 06:26 pm (UTC)
steelartisan: (why I'm here)
From: [personal profile] steelartisan
"Then we will deal with it. Together, Katya."

Date: 2007-11-15 07:52 pm (UTC)
steelartisan: (steel and shadow)
From: [personal profile] steelartisan
"You will not." He brushes light knuckles over her cheekbone, studies the pooled shadows of her face in the moonlight. "You are too stubborn."

"We can only try," he adds, softly. "Everything in our lives is full of maybe and if. We have always known that. And so we will deal with what comes. But we will try -- do our best -- and we will make it work."

They're both stubborn. And neither one of them's ever mastered the skill of paying attention to the odds.

Sometimes ignoring the odds is a good habit to be in.

(no subject)

From: [personal profile] steelartisan - Date: 2007-11-16 08:15 am (UTC) - Expand

(no subject)

From: [personal profile] steelartisan - Date: 2007-11-16 06:37 pm (UTC) - Expand

(no subject)

From: [personal profile] steelartisan - Date: 2007-11-17 08:58 am (UTC) - Expand

(no subject)

From: [personal profile] steelartisan - Date: 2007-11-19 10:13 am (UTC) - Expand

(no subject)

From: [personal profile] steelartisan - Date: 2007-11-19 08:14 pm (UTC) - Expand

(no subject)

From: [personal profile] steelartisan - Date: 2007-11-19 10:05 pm (UTC) - Expand

(no subject)

From: [personal profile] steelartisan - Date: 2007-11-19 11:42 pm (UTC) - Expand

(no subject)

From: [personal profile] steelartisan - Date: 2007-11-20 04:15 am (UTC) - Expand

(no subject)

From: [personal profile] steelartisan - Date: 2007-11-20 07:30 am (UTC) - Expand

(no subject)

From: [personal profile] steelartisan - Date: 2007-11-20 06:46 pm (UTC) - Expand

(no subject)

From: [personal profile] steelartisan - Date: 2007-11-20 11:04 pm (UTC) - Expand

(no subject)

From: [personal profile] steelartisan - Date: 2007-11-21 05:48 am (UTC) - Expand

(no subject)

From: [personal profile] steelartisan - Date: 2007-11-21 06:12 am (UTC) - Expand

resume

Kate Pryde | Shadowcat

July 2016

S M T W T F S
     12
3456789
10111213141516
17181920212223
24252627282930
31      

Page Summary

access granted

No cut tags
Page generated Jul. 21st, 2017 04:46 am
Powered by Dreamwidth Studios